I'm a sophomore in high school who just got out of a relationship.
During the first month of our relationship, we took everything slow. I was her second boyfriend, and I treated her like a delicate flower. I kept reminding myself that if I messed up, I'd break her heart. We had our first kiss on our first month anniversary when we went out to the same place I took her on our first date.
After our second month, I got word from her best friend that she'd been talking to her ex on AIM and the phone. I thought he was out of her life completely, but I was wrong.
I know this was a sneaky thing to do, but I just had to make sure. I logged on AIM and went invisible while I sat in front of my laptop. Seconds later, she logged on, and so did her ex. At 11:30, when I was finally about to give up and talk to her, she logged off and so did the ex..at the same time. I was shocked, but I kept my cool.
She continued talking to the ex after that day; one night they were up till 3 a.m. I finally confronted her and told her how I felt and how deeply hurt I was. At first, she told me that she didn't talk to him at all; then she told me that they were nothing but friends. She begged me to stay. After all the arguing, I decided to take her back because everyone makes mistakes, and she was a sweet girl after all.
After taking her back, I wanted to trust her, but it just wasn't there.
We broke up shortly after because I started liking my ex, Marley, since she actually spent time with me, but I was wrong. I can't sleep at night, and even if I do I wake up at 1 a.m. thinking about what I did. My heart has never pumped this fast in my life, and every time I wake up, I want to cry. I need my girlfriend back; the girl that hurts me but can't live without.
Should I try to get her back despite not trusting her?
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